i should feel happy that i made someone happy. im feeling let down and the total opposite. i cant find any reason why or any way to explain it. i feel like the worst person right now to someone that i should never feel this way towards. i should never feel anything negative about this person, and i do. im trying to put aside alot to rectify and make up for mistakes, and i cant do that right. i dont know what im doing right now. my eyes are closed and my ears are deaf. im just walking and waiting to feel something.