i said i wouldnt be bitter and i would be cool with it in a few hours. i lied to myself again. i keep my shield up and i never let it off my arm. my surface thoughts half awake and half dreaming were ready to tell you what i thought and how you have to start from the begining like everyone else now. my surface thoughts half awake and half dreaming were ready to tell you the bitterness returned. half awake and half dreaming, i told you i dont get comfortable quick and i felt no reason to make you work for anything from me. id rather be the ghost in the classroom haunting, leaving fear and wonder than be at rest to you. we fucked this up together.