i am restless as the winds that make the swell i lose myself in.
5am is only 2am to me, knowing i am only wide awake on california time
there is nothing endless here, nothing to remember, nothing sacred.
i want to stay distracted so i dont know where i am
so i dont time travel to a better place and forget that i have to come back
it will do me no good if i do any of that. and at this time last year, i forgot you. all of you.
sand carried me north and south, mother ocean east and west.
they let me forget and forgive for once.
for days i wasnt part of the human race, society, or the sadness you carry
thats all i have left to live for. one way or another.
i wont be part of your race, society, or sadness.