before i go the long way home, the right way home. i will be visiting my mothers grave and telling her i am sorry for the person i have become. that its not her fault or anyone elses but mine. that i am everything she thought i wouldnt be. that i know she is proud of me and i am a better person than everyone she has met and anyone will ever meet. that i can go home after kissing my mother goodbye, after packing my bags, and that i start tour soon.