trapped inland. mental and social.
ill fix this soon. i promise.

i can die here slowly in peace.
i cant die there so fast in destruction.
contrast kills.

one of you still dont understand after all these years.
you know me like your ghost.
you know me like your night terror.

one of you i am a disposable camera to.
good for 35. good for the time.
leave me to remember what youll only throw away.

sleep my nights away to neurosis
wake my days to the pig destroyer
thats the life i cycle in my home.

i dug my grave, i stepped in head first.
i forgot the circle. i forgot the loops we run in.
theres no darkness at the foot of the pit.
i swear im diving into the light.
i forgot you existed because im the one that fucked it up
i do this to everyone i feel for
i was too stupid to know i would go circle
im left at the grave diving in head first
its the best way i can get away from you
there is no darkness diving in
from the plague, from the love,
from the remains of the human race
there is no darkness diving in.
resurrection in 11 days.

another saturday night, fueled on redbull and false foods
wishing the girl i was stoked from far away on was there for the ride
starts with a bender, ends with a flash in the pan
from one circle of this hell to the other
spending cash, swilling beers, causing fears,
were not stopping til the blood fucking freezes in our veins
were poor ugly jaded mangly fucks from cleveland
and we dont care where we go or what we do
its another night without moderation, living as american as can be
getting fat and living the night in excess
living as american as can be, never giving a second thought
but its quite alright with me. i wouldnt want it any other way.
after the pan flash ill still drop out and stay away from the norm
i may blend in and play the part, but they dont know what really happens with me
just another bender on the board, life is one nonstop movie.