i crush too easily.
ill get lost in those eyes.
ill get comfortable in that collar.
ill become soft when i will lie next to you.
ill get nervous just thinking of what to say.
i dont want to wear out my welcome.
i get to be a boy anytime i get that crush.
just circle yes when i give you the test.
its ok to be reminded of youthful innocence.

the dream i had of you
where you looked me in the eyes
told me what i didnt want to hear
the one where i drove hours just to see you
to know what was right and wrong for me
i only remember the good things that were happening
i dont know if im foreshadowing anything anymore
but i know i didnt like what was going on
i only remember smiling then and knowing i was there with you
i kept going back to sleep and wanting it to never end
knowing i was walking the rose streets with you
i only remember knowing i woke up
and this time i didnt feel ill or unwelcome
knowing this is the only time ive ever been so sure on something
i only remember that there is a first for everything
and you will never know what this is for me
this is always going to be difficult and im starting to lose control slowly
that other time we danced, the smell of sparks and "midnight, the stars, and you"
i hate looking down and seeing nothing there
im only safe when i dream. youre always there when i look down.